Banana pudding day

Banana pudding is what I consider and underated dessert. By all means it is not my favorite but I surely enjoy it. Its not one of thoes desserts that they make into other desserts like cheesecake. Ex. Cheescake flavor icecream, cheescake pops ect. As you can tell I am a dessert coniseour lol. No really I love making and eating desserts. Its a huge stress reliever. Its also a huge unhealthy hobby but I like to bake for others. but here is the poing I've come to about banana pudding. Sometimes I put myself into the category of a banana pudding. Sometimes I feel underated, not very popular, an unappreaciated flavor. When I really want to be the most decadent of chocolate cakes served at one of those super fancy a** restaraunts garnished with gold leaf bits. Yes, this speaks volumes to my confidence level, but honestly that is the level I am at. Don't get my wrong, I don't feel like this 24/7 7days, there are just moments when I feel (like other human beings) that I'm not at where I would like to be. But top point is that I have a goal to be more and do more so that one day I can be more than gelatin and whipped hydrogenated oil lol. This sounds so silly in retrospect. I'm just a silly person.:)

Sis phone call

I just got off the phone with my sis and we talked about a bunch of stuff but mostly it was centered on work and stress and she said she was told today that "vengence is His". And I so go it! Sometimes you really have to sit back and let people look stupid. Kill people with kindness because as soon as you stoop down to their level or ignornace and inconsideration you let them have power over you which leads to a stress that you have the ability to avoid. We are all never above the fall. Meaning there will be so many times in our lives where we will mess up and do the wrong thing, but these are our lessons and its what makes us who we are. When we see others making their own mistakes, its is not our job to push them down even deeper or join in making the situation even more miserable. Sometimes we gotta step back and let God take it because that stress we don't need. Yes, sometimes it is hard to let it go because our pride and ego is what stands in the way but your pride and ego stands no match to that of God whose power overrules all things. I have always known to have faith in Him, but this conversation with my sister again reinforced this and the lesson could not have come at a more operative time. I have some decisions to make and which ever way I go I have to have faith that God will provide.

Prune your toes sometime.

I have not had a full fledge bubble-bath-till-your-toes-prune in a very long time. I decided since I had a little free time I would do this for myself. So I over did the bubbles turned on my pandora and relaxed. I forgot how calming it was. I didn't stay in until my toes pruned up because sadly I have other things that had to be done but I stayed in long enough to have a mental break and just be. My weekend is almost over. Back to work tomorrow in the am. Today, overall, went pretty well. I worked my second job. No horrible customers! Got of only an hour after I was suppose to and had time for myself. I think I'm gonna start reading a book my friend gave me and then hit the hay. I really wish I could catch up on all my shows. Maybe ill have time for that next weekend.

Lazy days gone

I haven't woken up without an agenda in a really long time. Sleep is truly a luxury. I find myself thinking constantly why am I in a position where I stay so busy and make little time for mental restoration when I know at some point I will probably lose my mine. The answer is because I'm crazy. Jk. No really I feel at some point all this hard work will PAY off. I've been on my "get money" tip for a while now. So far no drastic changes. It mostly looks like I'm working and working and working and nothing new is really happening. I have goals but I need to really sit and plan them out. Oh, but when will that ever happen if I don't have the time. So for now I will say eventually I will get there.

Sucked in by Starbucks

I don't know why I am always sucked in by starbucks. They have taken a huge chunk of my cashflow since my freshman year of college when I discoverd their frappachinos (probably spelt that wrong). :)

My Top 5 songs of the Week 1/6

I spend a lot of time in the car driving back and forth to work. So I listen to a lot of music in the car.Most stations play the same stuff over and over (the most popular) but I listen to pandora and look at blogs when I have extra time. I hope to be able to post every week the top 5 songs that were implanted in my mind. So here are the top 5 songs for this first week of the new year that are currently stuck in my head and sung on repeat.

Rhianna "Talk that Talk"
Fun. Feat.Janelle Monae "We Are Young" (crazy video :) )
Lady Antebellum "Just a Kiss"
Chris Brown "Strip"
Wale "Ambition"

Proud to Teach Amazing Kids!

Today I receive a cute but touching pin from a parent of a student I teach. I am an Instructional Assistant for children with Autism. This has by far been my most challenging but most rewarding job. I love love love the kids I work with. I find myself randomly thinking of better ways to teach them and have fun with them when I'm not working. They have taught me as much as I have taught them. I've volunteered my time at libraries and museums and did similar things for the better cause of the community but I think teaching these kids feels like I am truly giving back. To get this pin from a parent reinforces this. I am proud to teach amazing kids.