Since this past summer, maybe even closer to the end of spring I had decided to just stop wrapping myself around the idea of a fairy tale romance happening for me. When I say fairytail, I mean the classic (but not so abundant anymore) style of guy meets girl, introduces himself, gets her number, askes her out, and it works out for the long haul. You know marriage,kids and all that good stuff. I never had a huge unrealistic way of looking at love (some of my friends may disagree lol) because I ovbiously knew that's not the way it always goes, but I did think it was possible. Before, I did have a greater notion that it was possible for that to happen for me. I'm getting older and so far I have had no luck. Thus the change of thinking on my part since last summer late spring. A lot of this change came from dissapointments in sitiations from guys who I really liked. Situations where I put myself out ther, told them that I liked them,and all I got back was " I like you just as a friend". It stung a bit,but a least I finally knew and I felt proud that I told them otherwise I would have been stuck having feelings for someone who does not feel the same. I cant feel any angst towards someone who has the balls to tell me the truth right? After the dissapointment went away I realized that you just can't help who you like and don't like and sometimes it just happens the way you hoped it wouldn't. Anywho, since I made that change of thinking (where its just whatever if it happens or not) I've been getting hit on but by bad boys and guys I just did not expect to ever get hit on by. So the good boys that I liked before turned out to be no fun in retrospesct and seemed essentially boring by some standards compared to the crazyiness these bad boys who are now hollerin at me brought but they are no good at all. I have yet to go out with any of them (when I say any, I mean just 3 guys total don't wanna make it seem like there are a whole bunch of them) but I have talked and chatted a bit with them, long enough to see they aren't right for me. I do not, by all means, have room to be picky but I also am not going to settle. The things these guys want I'm not offering so that is that. But I will say it is nice to be wanted. To have someone call you and just chat. Their intentions may be to get the goods, but honestly I found them to be a lot more easy to talk to because even if that is what they are going for, (I'm not giving that up) and I made that known to them in the beginning, at least they know what they want. Now I'm just waiting for the guy who will come at me with the pure true interest of getting to know me.
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